Saturday, December 31, 2011

a little reflection


Kobe the wonder dog.

I've been in deep reflection all day today...and really every day for the last few weeks. 2011 has been an amazing year...ranging from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows. I wouldn't take any of it back, not one bit. My word(s) for last year (...I couldn't choose between two) were fearLESS and flourish. Looking back over the year I'd say that fearLESSness was a predominate player for sure, and flourish also played it's part. I went to a fabulous retreat in March, where I met some friends in person for the first time, and made some new friends. Mid year I began a year long program so exciting and crazy that I couldn't have conceived of it at the beginning of last year - I'm now closer to actually owning the fact that I am clairvoyant. Every night before I go to sleep I reflect on what I am grateful for (gratitude journaling is something I've done over the years, this is my current take on it). We said goodbye on December 12th to our beloved and first furbaby Kobe, in such a flash that I still cannot quite wrap my mind around it. My husband lost his job. I became a Reiki I practioner.We are packing up the safety of what we have called home for the last 7 years, and will be moving to a new home. I have a regular meditation practice, and I'm more spiritual now than I have ever been. I've developed and deepened friendships that have absolutely changed my world. I became a part of a nurture huddle with an amazing group of women that I feel lucky beyond measure to know. I discovered the power of working with Angels. My Grandma had a stroke several months ago (she's doing well and working on recovery), and my Grandfather passed away the day before my birthday. I participated in SouLodge online. I am more comfortable in my skin than ever, and have a new found trust in myself that still takes me by surprise at times. This is just a small taste of what my year has held. I've absolutely changed on a cellular level this year...and it couldn't have happened if I wouldn't have chosen my word....or if it hadn't chosen me.

I was feeling like I wasn't sure what my word was going to be for 2012, and during a conversation with a dear friend, I realized that my word had already found me. It's been presenting itself to me on a regular basis for a few months now....in meditation, in life, everywhere I look. In 2012 I am welcoming in MAGIC to help guide me. I am completely opening to possibility, and this is one of the things that magic represents to me. It makes me think of being unlimited, powerful, free, hopeful, open. And these are some of the things I hope for myself this upcoming year.

There is so much more to say about the depths of where I've been this year...I know I have lots of writing material! This has been a quiet online writing year for me, partly because of all of the rapid change going on in my world and there's been so much living in my everyday life. I haven't exactly known what I wanted to write, or how to write about it. I've been thinking about whether I want another space for this new phase, or not...One thing I know for sure, is that I cannot wait to see what MAGIC is to come in the next twelve months!! My wish is that a little of that will spill out into the world of anyone who knows me, or reads what I share through writing.

May 2012 be a magical, love filled year for all!!